mols:

I think you could fall in love with anyone if you saw the parts of them no one else gets to see. Like if you followed them around invisibly for a day and saw them crying in their bed at night or singing in the shower or humming quietly to themselves as they make a sandwich or even just walking along the street. And even if they were really weird and had no friends at school, I think, after seeing them at their most vulnerable, you wouldn’t be able to help falling in love with them.

Sometimes friendships & relationships need silence to heal the hurt and to rebuild. Sometimes, silence is simply the answer.

So don’t be scared - be patient.

Got up at 9. Got ready, sent cousin home. Picked grandma up and took her to the flea market. Walked around at the flea market for an hour and froze my pretty ass up. Dropped grandma back home. Got home, studied a bit. Went to cousins birthday dinner at 3. Left at 9, drove home - realized I left my phone at my cousins. Drove back, did some thinking on the drive there. Picked up my phone, drove home. Facebooked for an hour. showered ——> knocked out.

I want to show you that love is possible, I want to kiss your bruised soul and I want to cuddle all your hurts but I also want to love me. Giving you all that will enable me to lose myself in the process of trying to make you see that I am special aside from all the other girls you’ve met and loved but I can’t convince you that unless you’re willing to see it. So I’m just going to keep dancing to the wind, I’m going to keep being me and when you’re ready you can take my hand and dance with me, but I can’t promise you that I’m going to be here forever. I would love to wait but I don’t have the patience built for it, so if you care for me the way you claim to - then hopefully you’ll get up and show me that my naive bruised heart isn’t so silly for waiting on yours. I love you, I hope you understand that - there is no greater phrase to express how I feel for you, so I’ll keep whispering it, till you hear it.

I just miss you so much right now, thinking on it, I don’t get to see you as much as I’d like, it sucks and it doesn’t at times but I just miss you so darn much. I need to go be by myself right now. Sigh.

You go into the arena alone. The lions are hungry for you.

Took bro to school at 7:30. Came back to my warm bed. Woke up at 9. Danced around naked in my room. Checked FB. Had lunch with Alicia at 10 - it was good catching up. Decided we wanted to go to the mall. Left the mall at 11:55. Headed to school. Class all the way till 3:00. [communications then sociology - mostly all introductions]. Went home, pigged out. Came back to school at 6 - absolutely loving Polisci this semester for sure. Got out early, went back to the mall for cute pants. Bought super cute beige cropped pants for summer. Headed home. Made yummy home made orange juice. Gonna shower….and sleep. Long day, but good:)

(Source: gmscr)

After reading a couple advices and looking into it, I’ve come to conclude that I’m done with us.

You know I remember how we used to go places together, we’d laugh as one and now we’re just two different icebergs separated by cold water. To be honest, we both fell apart, you did your thing and I did mine but I’ll say this much.

Life goes on, people come and go but real friends are those who stand by you at your worst, I feel like that’s what I’ve always done for you and I just got to that point in my life where I got really tired of waiting on you (you know how much I hate waiting on people). Whether it was going to the gym together, going out to eat, job hunting - in every situation you have always been the lagger and I’ve been kind enough to let it slide but after awhile I just got so tired of listening to the same drama, of having to wait for you while opportunities passed me, and you were a good friend to me. You listened to me rant about my issues with my mom, you had my back when I snuck out with my boyfriend, you defended and believed in me when no one else did and somewhere along that line we both just fell apart. I can’t say I’ve tried but I also can’t say I haven’t tried. It’s as if I want to fix it and I don’t, now I’m just here sitting waiting for the tide to touch my feet, if not I will gladly just watch the sun rise and set, morning and night.

But I am sad to say, I really thought our friendship would never have faded. Now when we talk I feel like I don’t even know you anymore, you associate with people who smell of lies and you swim in a sea of fakeness. I’d rather stand on the sidelines and watch as you proceed and I guess this is just how we’re going to end. For some reason, I am sad but I don’t feel like making a difference, I have no idea anymore.